The Holidays And Random Thoughts

I wanted to just do a post about how I feel during the holidays.  I love and hate the holidays at the same time.  I mean I love them because I am with a amazing guy in my life and he is awesome and I am so in love  with him.  I also love them cause I am thankful for my children that they are safe an sound.  I also hate in the way that I wish there was more that I could do for my kids and give them everything they could ever need.  I hope for them every day that they have and make good deisions.  Which I know without a doubt that they will, both of them are good girls and they want for nothing in this world.  Not because they are spoiled is becausse they are well loved.  But these are reasons I both love and hate christmas.  But also because I wish I had good memories.  See growing up was not good memories for me.  I do not remember alot of things but the things I do remember I wish I didnt. 

Have you ever had that where you wish you didnt remember some things and some things you wish you did.  I wish I remember more things when I was small with Diane.  But then with Edwin I wish I didnt remember as much as I do.  I dont know I think in each generation that kids grow.  It is different and everyone raises their kids differently thats why alot of people will look down their noses at the way the younger kids raise their kids.  Because then you didnt do the things you do now.  But I wanted to share some of my random thoughts with these holiday ones.  Hope all is well.

Scooby doo xmas song

Hello, Let Me Introduce Myself

Hello my name is Tina, I am a chef, a mother of 2 beautiful girls.  I am a brain tumor survivor, I have battled this for 22 years.  I live like there is no tomorrow because you never know.  I have had a rough life I had 8 different surgeries for brain tumors.  As well as 6 weeks of radiation treatments 5 times a week.  So I know what it is to go through alot.  I saved some one once in my life and then he hated me for it.  To this day I still dont talk to him.

I have no regrets in my life for I feel like everything I have gone through.  Although not necessary it has made me the person I am and a very strong person.  I am thankful for everything.  I am totally in love with my boyfriend.  I believe he saved me from myself by coming into my life.  He is the sweet person.  There isn't anything I wouldn't do for him.

I am a chef I love to cook and I had the opportunity to go on Master Chef.  But due to money situation I couldnt make it there.  So now I am saving up to try out after this season and I will get on this show.  I believe it will be a life experience and cant wait.

So this is just a bit about me and some of the stuff I like and everything.  I hope that you keep reading because I will be sharing all kinds if great information.